More thoughts on unemployment...

Right now I'm trying to find inner peace with coffee and self help books sitting in Coffee Bean in Brentwood; coffee in one hand, bagel and book in the other. "The Road Less Travelled " today specifically. 
There is a power outage due to bad winds last night so I'm forced out of my nest and up the street. 
Loneliness, boredom and self doubt make up my everyday. That and cheese and chocolate. Unemployment is getting the better of me.  Did I mention I've put on 7lbs. I need a job if not for the bottom line then definitely for my waistline. I've binged watched, binged being the word of the moment, awesome TV shows on Showtime, "Ray Donovan" a favourite and "The Affair". Ruth Wilson is nothing short of brilliant. They all are actually but her scenes stick in your gut. There's the gut again.   This binge watching which I enjoy thoroughly is  apparently very bad for your health. A bit like the cheese, chocolate, loneliness and self doubt, so what ya gonna do?!
 
I've been to two recruiters who promised the sun, moon and stars only I appear to be residing in another galaxy and  there's no connection, be that through phone, email or snail mail between mine and theirs. I haven't heard a peep from them. I'm not looking to be the next CEO of Google or anything or the next big star in little old Hollywood,  just to do a little admin somewhere.  Surely there's a CEO who needs something typed up or a star that needs their flights booked.  Apparently not.
 
Most days I try to be positive or have the intention of being so, some days I scramble at 5pm to get dressed, other days I'm up like a shot and out for a 4 mile walk.  Those days becoming rarer and rarer.  Yesterday was not one of those.  It started positive-ish,  normal and self doubt-y, there was a job interview looming at 2:30pm.  I really want this job. It is from what I can tell an ideal mix of my education and work experience. Winner. Right?! Only I need to probably do a little convincing and I'm sick with nerves.  What I lack in practical experience I make up for academically, methinks anyway. You can tell I'm perfect for this job, oh and it's a mile down the road. This is LA, it doesn't get much better than that, it doesn't get much better than that anywhere really. 

Dressed to kill, suited and booted,  cruelty free face paint on, resume in hand, speech and answers ready, uber booked then I get a voicemail; "apologies, interview cancelled". What happened next is not normal by any stretch.  The dark cloud that enveloped the sunny residence in Brentwood came quickly and was so dense no amount of wind could lift it. Ok, so that's a little dramatic but I was devastated. It was the first interview I'd been called for out of all my applications sent in over the past 2 months. I average 3 a day so there's quite a few companies with my resume sitting in their cloud.  After the voicemail, I put back on my sweats, went back to the laptop and applied for more jobs, eating chocolate and sniffling. What greeted my husband upon his return from his day at work was the night before's left overs, a no animals were harmed in the making of this mascara stained face and an oh woe is me attitude. Poor guy. This unemployment is not only hard on me.

Cut to today. I'm being more positive again or have the intention of being so, practicing gratitude and will keep applying and ploughing on, asking the universe for a job.  Please. I'm ordering from the cosmic kitchen. Order in!!
As a side note this gratitude attitude really works and is helpful and I definitely recommend it. I will beat this unemployment at its own game, through gratitude and a change in attitude, scoring points against self doubt, boredom and loneliness along the way.  Watch this space. An employee of the month title is beckoning. I can just about make it out through the dark dense cloud.

From before... my Brain and unemployment.. 
http://softerfootsteps.blogspot.com/2015/08/my-brain-and-unemployment.html