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| Quote - Bono |
I am a freckled ex-pat. You could say my American life began properly this summer with my marriage and more recently with the approval of my green card. I feel lucky and know I am blessed. The anticipation and anxiety around this coloured card has been palpable. Not only was there apprehension regarding it's approval and the interview process but now there's the exciting, wonderful, pinch me am I dreaming, I'm so grateful feeling paradoxically juxtaposed along side the realization that comes with all of that. "Permanent residency" and I am terrified. It's bringing with it it's own kind of loneliness and nostalgia.
Permanent Residency: but wait a minute, I'm Irish and more importantly I'm from "the Gar". Now I'm the first one to call out Bono on being a self righteous knowitall so and so, I have a love /hate relationship with him, which I'm sure concerns him gravely. I'm proud that he's Irish, I'm a U2 fan, his wife's a stunner but he does go on a bit by times and I can't stand him holding court like he does but I love this quote from him (picture above) that's stenciled on the wall of the "The Little Museum of Dublin". When I read it, I was instantly struck by how perfectly it synopsized my feelings about the beautiful island. Lately quotes like this one have been making me cry.
This week has been a busy life week. A welcome change from the recent day to day norm. My limbo-land is finally drawing to a close.
When you have ten to twelve hours alone with only your head and reruns of Grey's Anatomy for company you can discover a lot about yourself. Meredith and Co. became my best friends. I enjoyed my fantasies about Hunt and Sloan and which character I am most like on the show, but when the hour turns into three and four episodes this can quickly become old and unappealing. I unearthed how both resilient and weak I can be at the same time. A conflicting duality.
